So, eventually, I started clicking on some videos that would come into my feed. At first, I would get maybe 30 seconds in and be like, 'Nope!' Can’t do it. I am not getting the same enjoyment out of this as others. But after a while (it's been like a 3-year journey to date), I was watching longer, full videos, and then I was searching for videos. I noticed not all  ASMR content is the same.

So… what even is this? If, like me, you fall asleep watching bodycam videos, you’ve definitely seen the clip: someone gets pulled over—maybe their license plate’s missing—when the cop asks for a license, registration, or insurance, and suddenly the driver erupts…

Over the course of this series, I’ve laid out the strangest, hardest-to-explain moments of my life. Childhood brain tingles tied to my mother’s emotions. Feeling my children’s injuries in real time. Dreams that came true, a coin that shouldn’t exist, cardinals that arrived (and stopped) at pivotal moments, flickering lights that tracked my moods, hunger that vanished with my mother, and angel numbers that still find me.